passive aggressiveness. followed by a sweet weekend.

friday evening, with the words "passive-aggressive" ringing through my head and after working an extra 1 1/2 hours overtime, i drove home nearly in tears.  i don't think that i could have wanted to win the lottery any more than i did during that drive - but, thankfully, my job is still intact.  then i went home and had a very in-depth, heart-to-heart with the husband, which, while magnificently productive, pushed me into migraine territory.

but fast forward to beautiful, sunshiny saturday afternoon, and we find ourselves with the mini on the shores of lake simcoe.  hopped up on sugary pop and sour cream and onion chips, we go with one of the husband's friends (and his two kids and the dog) in his motorboat and speed across the water.  joy.  bliss.  and that feeling of contentment flows into sunday (despite the fact that the mini now has a penchant for throwing things.  probably she was still a little tired from the boat ride.)

which allows me to finally look up what passive-aggressive means.  so i quote, from wikipock (seriously, the BEST blackberry app - we are now soooo addicted):

Passive–aggressive behavior, a personality trait, is passive, sometimes obstructionist resistance to following through with expectations in interpersonal or occupational situations. It is a personality trait marked by a pervasive pattern of negative attitudes and passive, usually disavowed resistance in interpersonal or occupational situations.


It can manifest itself as learned helplessness, procrastination, stubbornness, resentment, sullenness, or deliberate/repeated failure to accomplish requested tasks for which one is (often explicitly) responsible.[1]

i realized, that yes, when i am stressed, i CAN be like this.  except for maybe the procrastination and maybe a little of the deliberate.repeated failure bit - i really do not have enough time in the world to do everything.  (which is probably why i shouldn't be blogging right now.)  and i am absolutely guilty of making snide comments, negative jokes and i am sure that my facial expressions give my feelings away, no matter how quickly i try to mask them.  so i am going to take this feedback and run with it and try to make things better. for myself, not anybody else.  i don't really want to add this term to my resume.  :)